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Thursday, September 29, 2022

Beholding

Beholding His beauty ...
 "You will become like that which you are beholding."  Can HE be any more blunt?  Two weeks ago I heard this quote as I was contemplating fixing my eyes on unseen vs. seen ... (deep thoughts: how can something be unseen? Does it first have to be seen? ... let it go dear one, let it go!).  Back to the present ...

Behold: see or observe a thing or person, specifically a remarkable or impressive one.  To gaze upon or observe with pleasure, to look and see ... As a wee one squawks its first breath, we BEHOLD the beauty of the miracle of life.  Once a curly haired little boy, now sharing the depth of his heart, we BEHOLD he is growing in wisdom and stature before God and men.  The thunder booms, the rain pounds, the lightning streaks, we daily BEHOLD the strength of these storms ... My once upon a time 4 year old son, insisted on donning the same color scheme from head to toe, he was a sight to BEHOLD ... eye roll! ... As I BEHELD the array of warmth in the luminescent colors of the setting sun, the peace that enveloped me was one to BEHOLD. (2 pts for that one!) ... and one last one, as my Grammie used to say, "low and BEHOLD dear girl!" Uncertain of her meaning, we'll leave it at that! 

If what is seen is temporary and what is unseen is eternal, if I want to become more like Jesus, I need to behold that which is unseen.  Assuredly, there is a deep peace that comes with the simplicity of this train of thought ... Beholding the unseen.

If I am beholding - gazing upon, contemplating, observing - the overwhelming list of 'to-do' projects on base, orienting new staff in finding their place when everything feels new again, the need for a full time worship leader, the forgotten treasures that need to find their proper homes, the "you're still dealing with this" thought, the magnitude of souls needing discipled, sickness, imprisonment, storms, despair ... If I am beholding these, I will become like these, an anxious bundle of unpleasant company, not unlike the tangle of last years Christmas lights! However, and you know where I'm going with this, if I am beholding -gazing upon with pleasure, observing a remarkable or impressive thing - my Provider, my Sustainer, the One who clears my clouded thoughts, the Changer of surrendered hearts, the Lifter of my weary head, the Light in my dark moments, my Sovereign Liege and BFF ... let me tell you, there will be joy in the house of the Lord today!

Dear Ones, this is not about choosing joy in the face of despair or always getting it right.   It's like a mother cupping the face of her chubby cheeked cherub and beholding his innocence even as she knows his intent to tantrum throw and disobey.  She speaks truth in the beholding so that said cherub's focus is averted.  It is a journey of choosing to behold Him face to face, and being beheld by Him, so that the temptation to avert our eyes in defeat becomes less and less! 

Live as children of light ... find out what pleases the Lord ... Choose what you will behold! 

Life on the mountain
August graduation feels like a year ago already!  Weekend at the beach with Micah; 10 day mother son trip to the States filled with sweet fellowship; Welcoming a precious wee one into the world; Celebrating 21 years of us; Rearranging rooms to accommodate the blessing of 15 staff and 10 fresh Vida220 students; Adjusting to life in a multi-cultural community filled with new faces and hearts waiting to connect; Lots of goodbyes and just as many hellos; Independence day parades and festivities, complete with Jedidiah playing his newly acquired talent on the saxophone;  A week of staff development on being an intentional Transitional Leader; First week of college in the books, First week of being a Vida220 leader in the books; and fixing our eyes on what is unseen to become what we are beholding!

Praises
The freshness of a new Vida220 school
Sharing life and hearts with sisters
Dorita, a gift from God in the kitchen
New staff are figuring out their roles
Jedidiah's gift of leading worship is growing
A community of prayer warriors

Prayers
The attack from the enemy feels strong as we choose obedience
Financial wisdom and help for Katy, one of our staff
Daryl as he navigates steps to wholeness
Daryl as he navigates the financial world at VidaNet
Micah: wisdom for leading from Fathers heart
Joseph: his college world at Thaddaeus Stevens
Jedidiah: to find his sense of purpose
Adam: to live as a child of light and not worry
To trust Father's provision and not spread ourselves thin
As we choose to behold the unseen

It's a practical Uncle's gift, right?
They are never to old for old toys ... hours of fun!
While Mom's away ...
Burgers with the boys!
Reenacting ...
what a difference 5 years makes! 

Token first day of school pic ...
Look out Thaddeus Stevens, his mind is ready to learn!
Sweet fellowship ...
Saying goodbye to Joseph ...
Some of us were more awake than others! 

Look Mama, I got good scores even when you were away!

Saying goodbye to Micah once again as he moves on base for Vida220
Celebrating Us ...
21 looks good on Us!
One of our favorite teachers and band director ...
Celebrating 15 de Septiembre, CR Independence Day!

14 of September tradition ...
The parade of  lanterns for Independence day.

A week off school provided opportunity for an early birthday gift ...
Golf with Dad!

Ice cream ... the perfect celebration for a new school and new staff!
Pray for us as we learn to BEHOLD Him with this precious community!

Those who look to (BEHOLD) Him are radiant 
and their faces are never covered with shame. 
Psalm 34:5

Wednesday, August 10, 2022

Intentional


Celebrating Micah - missing Joseph
How do I summarize life for an anticipating audience?  What is one word that describes life as we know it?  How do I give a 5 minute summary of 2 years?  While attempting sleep in the rooster crowing, mighty men snoring, wee morning hours of our hotel room in Honduras, these thoughts droned on like the hum of the air conditioner.  I covered my head and tried to not think ... "don't think, don't think, don't think",  I mentally quoted scripture, prayed for others, I mentally turned my brain off like a light switch, and finally succumbing to the possibility that sleep would be evaded, I allowed my mind to process.  One word ... Intentional.  There, my life is summarized by the word intentional, now go to sleep! 

This one word continued to slosh around in my mind as we joggled through the pothole laden roads of Honduras.  Why am I intentional and what is my goal? To shine my crown and secure my seat at The Banqueting Table (pride)? To make others like me and feel good about myself (Fear of man)?  To check off my 'discipleship to-do' list (works mentality)?  Why do I have conversations with my meat guy, greet our taxi driver and start conversations with our seatmate on the airplane? Why do I have so many questions in this blog?   

Isn't that what discipleship is about, intentionally building relationships to share Jesus?  This is the stuff that life is made of, intentionally sharing Jesus.  One can't be casually intentional.  Being intentional has a plan, a purpose, a goal in mind.  I intentionally kiss my bedwarmer good morning, I intentionally have coffee with Jesus, I intentionally speak words of life to my boys as they exit the van for school, I intentionally put the phone down and look them in the eye as they are speaking.  I intentionally meet with 'my girls' to process life with them ... (really though, I simply love them and love coffee with them!).  I intentionally ask, "Lord, lead me today as You see best.  Use the gifts You have given me to encourage others on their journey.  Help me not to compare myself with others but to be content."  Being intentional is simply seeking Jesus first.  Ephesians 5:8-10 says it like this ... 

But now, you are light in the Lord.  Live as children of light (the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and ... find out what pleases the Lord! 

What or Who is He asking you to be intentional about? 

Life on the Mountain
Remember those 8 busy weeks?  Life hasn't slowed down much! We celebrated the end of Vida Missions with a weekend beach trip for our family of 39;  Prayed our students through their Luke10 experience;  Celebrated graduation with our beloved students;  Hosted 4 friends overnight;  Savored coffee and conversation with Micah in person;  Video called Joseph in 2 different countries;  Explored VidaNet's Honduras base while celebrating a weekend wedding and Memorial service;  Visited the Mama Project in Honduras where Father confirmed in my heart why I wanted to be a nurse 20+ years ago;  Spent 12 luxurious hours overnight in Panama enjoying the sights from the top of our hotel instead of from the airport windows;  Said goodbye to dear friends moving back to Honduras;  and ... took a 2 hour nap after returning home yesterday morning! 

Praises
Safe, no issues weekend travels
Hotel in Panama
Austin and Griselda are married! 
Renewed connections, & celebrating Delynn's life
Our students safely home

Prayers
Healing for Micah
Students transition home
God to fill vacated staff positions
Family dynamics
Refreshment for all of us 
To be intentional  

Summer in PA ... he caught it with his shirt! 
Family fun - Mini golf
His 'sisters' gave him flowers to help him feel better!
Cucumbers for supper ...
"And, my eyes are so puffy!" 
Family dinner for 30+
They did it! ...
Celebrating these amazing world changers!
Let the adventure weekend travel begin! 
Wedding fanciness ...
Adam's debut as a Bearer of the Rings!
"No Mom, I'm not nervous!"
The spice in our family! 
Mother's of the Groom! : )
8 Generations of Vida220 celebrating Austin and Gris!


Some hard good byes with these dear sisters ...

The gift of our hotel view ... Panama City. 
Thankfully, no airport sleeping quarters needed!  

Wednesday, July 20, 2022

Entrance by Association

Entrance granted! 
It was the perfect day for a spontaneous picnic – there was no rain (even though it’s rainy season), the blue sky beckoned to my soul, the sun's warmth tenderly kissed our skin and the shade promised to cool our sweat moistened shirts.  Bar-B-Q meatballs, rice and steamed broccoli would not be my first choice for a blanketed picnic meal, but it was delicious none the less.  Food, plates, water bottles and blanket loaded in the van with its 4 inhabitants, we drove our usual route up the mountain.  Our anticipated destination, Bosque de la Hoja (the leaf forest), across from Casa VidaNet’s entrance.  Since Covid, this beautiful national park is only open Saturday and Sunday and there is always a line awaiting entrance.  We parked in front of Casa VidaNet to avoid the entrance line and gleefully walked across the road to our Sunday sabbath space just as the park rangers placed a big red STOP sign at the parks entrance!  My heart deflated, “God, the sky, the sun, the shade, I thought YOU planned this spontaneous time for us!”  As the park ranger greeted Daryl in friendly fashion,  a coy smile crossed my face realizing he was motioning us in.  I jokingly asked, “Is there room for 4 more?”  “For you, yes!”  My heart inflated with joy once again as we sauntered through the gate while others were turned away due to restrictions on park capacity.  

Our tummies fully satisfied on BBQ meatballs and rice, I lay back pondering the clouds and how far away Heaven looks (you know up there beyond the clouds) to the physical world.  As I contemplated our entrance to said park, I felt Father whisper to my spirit, “you were granted entrance by association.”  I thought about the relationship we’ve built with the park rangers who spend their days ‘guarding and regulating’ the park entrance and because of that, we were granted entrance while others were turned away.  

My mind was drawn to another time a few weeks earlier, as our late night hunger for ice cream prompted a last minute stop at Super La Cope, (our local Turkey Hill), at closing time.  They quickly motioned us inside, closed and locked the door after us and waited patiently for us to select our late night guilty pleasure!  After said purchase, they jovially ushered us out through what I called the ‘rat door’, a side exit under the plastic flaps.  We were granted entrance by association.
    
As I’ve pondered these situations the last few days it has left my heart burdened for those who do not have entrance by association into The Kingdom.  This morning I was feeling the weight of “what more can I do? … so many are missing entrance!”  His tender heart spilled out in words on my page … “Seek My face.  I have hidden heaven in your heart (not up beyond the clouds).  Your closeness to Me enables you to be My hands and feet, shine My heart and emit My sweet fragrance that clings to you from time spent with Me.”  You see, entrance by association really isn’t about me or my friendliness or what I can do, and it certainly isn’t about my fear of man, or desire to please others and make sure everyone is happy and feels cared for.  Entrance by association is all about Jesus … being with Him, knowing Him and sharing Him! Would you care to join me for coffee and let me tell you about my Jesus?

This song says it well … "Let Me Tell You About My Jesus"   by Annie Wilson.

Life on the mountain
It has been 8 full of life weeks!  This Friday we’re sending the last 49 of 300+ Vida Missions participants safely a la casa.  June first feels like a lifetime ago.  We have felt Father’s abundant blessing through the ‘cookie cutter’ routine of Vida Missions.  We give Him glory for the challenges, lives changed, conflicts, newfound freedom, sickness, and all He’s brought us through.  Now, bring on a weekend at the beach!  In normal life … Micah’s leadership has been encouraged and he has made mama proud.  Joseph has settled into routine in the States with Grammie and Pop-pop Diener, he has definitely found a sense of independence that life in CR didn’t offer.  Jedidiah decided he wanted to learn to play the saxophone, and so he did!  Adam celebrated another year of life and joy.  He and Jedi have assisted in leading teams to the throne through participating on the worship team.  Daryl and I are thankful the routine of Vida Missions isn’t the norm and the constant calculating of numbers and food quantities for this amount of people is only for this season.  And, I thoroughly enjoyed a female presence in our house the last month … Ellie, we miss you! 

Praises
Safety and life shared with 13 Vida Missions teams 
Joseph feeling settled in PA
Father faithfully carrying us and providing exactly what we need
Celebrating years of life: #9 for Adam and #50 for someone else : )
Unity in leadership, and the desire for deeper unity.
Your faithful prayers on our behalf

Prayers
Lots of goodbyes and staff transitions over the next month
Complete healing on Jen’s left foot
Micah’s transition home for 6 weeks then back to VidaNet
Our van’s oil leak to be completely resolved
Relational unrest among the family that we live in the middle of (our landlords)
To be bold in our invitation to entrance by association!

Hugs we were anxiously anticipating! 
and more ... 
and more ...
and still more ...
Translating for an outreach pastor ...
His Spanish has far surpassed mine!
Caribbean night ... 
... definitely the highlight theme night
Joseph relaxing with 'old friends' ... 
"Life is good"
Making space for the youngins'
Vacation day with Ellie ...
a much needed break from the busy routine!
Trying out his wedding attire! 
These two go together like Ketchup and Mayo
on a Latino table! 
Beloved kitchen crew ... 
... and sometimes that crew needs a break from the kitchen! 
A celebratory set up for a relaxing evening ... 
they made dinner, and showered me with love!
Most amazing gift ever ... Hoover Family Coat of Arms!
Designed by someone who knows us ... 
Each symbol depicting the name Father calls us!
 

Keep calm, it's only a number, right?!

Psalm 116: 7
Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the Lord has been good to you.